What a great movie.
Movies are so decieving though. Little girls grow up watching disney and later movies like Titanic and The Notebook. They fill our head with fantasies that no real guy could live up to. Why do we allow ourselves to be influince on how someone should act oppose to just accepting what they have to offer.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
The Beginning
I need a journal I know I can keep up with. Hopefully by doing one on the computer I can do that. The next two years of my life I feel like have already been planned for me and it feels crummy. Being in the bachelors program is so much more than I could have ever expected. I don't knwo how they can expect thier class to be everybody numero uno priority. 3 practicums! 18 hours each. How? Why? ahhh. I feel so squashed and we have only been in school for a week and a half.
Mom has to leave the country again. Just knowing I'm not going to be able to talk to her everyday makes me want to cry. She is my best friend and I feel like I'm constanly loosing her the past 2 years. I want to be close to her, geographically. I love everything the AF has done for me and my family but I wish you would quite taking my mom away.
My heart won't stop hearting either. Over 2 months now since he ended it and I haven't gotten over him not one bit. I don't know why I can't let him go. I know there are plenty of other great guys out there but...
He says the things I want to hear when we do get to see eachother and he is so nice, but she is the one he chooses to be with every night. I still wish I knew what I could have done to keep him. I miss him so much. I wish with everything that I could just be over him and find someone else who would treat me so nice and loving. I know I will someday I just hope it's sooner rather than later.
Only my first post and I'm crying. It feels so good just to get it out somehow. Hopefully now I can get a good nights rest. It would be so nice to have a pleasant dream tonight. If I do I probably won't remember it.
goodnight.
Mom has to leave the country again. Just knowing I'm not going to be able to talk to her everyday makes me want to cry. She is my best friend and I feel like I'm constanly loosing her the past 2 years. I want to be close to her, geographically. I love everything the AF has done for me and my family but I wish you would quite taking my mom away.
My heart won't stop hearting either. Over 2 months now since he ended it and I haven't gotten over him not one bit. I don't know why I can't let him go. I know there are plenty of other great guys out there but...
He says the things I want to hear when we do get to see eachother and he is so nice, but she is the one he chooses to be with every night. I still wish I knew what I could have done to keep him. I miss him so much. I wish with everything that I could just be over him and find someone else who would treat me so nice and loving. I know I will someday I just hope it's sooner rather than later.
Only my first post and I'm crying. It feels so good just to get it out somehow. Hopefully now I can get a good nights rest. It would be so nice to have a pleasant dream tonight. If I do I probably won't remember it.
goodnight.
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